Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

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This is Chasing Cars, by Snow Patrol. A song that gave me a strange kind of peace in the midst of much confusion and heart-ache. I've always felt strongly on the nature of the division between professional and personal. It seems to be rather awkward for everyone involved for someone to take someone's professional decision personally. Change things around, making them different and difficult for people to deal with. Just ... make life a little more complicated. Leave you caught in a cycle, where nearly everything seems to be as pointless ... as Chasing Cars. The origin of the song name comes from something that was said to Gary Lightbody (frontman for Snow Patrol) by his father, with respect to some girl Gary was after - you're like a dog chasing a car; you'll never catch it, and you wouldn't know what to do with it even if you did.

Well, I caught it. And I thought I'd understand what to do with it. I have continued to have the most amazing relationship and love that can be imagined. It seems incredibly right, and continues to this day - and it's been so long since it all began. I feel old, but that doesn't take away from all that value I give unto it. However, the problem of dealing with the insanity that is any relationship plays upon my mind quite often. I keep wondering whether it's all worth the pain and suffering any kind of dealing with people who are that close to you.

And then, there was last night. Just a serene feeling of being there. Nothing more, nothing less. There was also the dream. The feeling of soaring, of having found peace and understanding of self. Alone, and together.

All that I am, and all that I ever was, isn't within her perfect eyes. They are within my own vision. But those eyes are what all of me wants to be with, and that's all that matters.